I need a Remedy

Just last night the real nightmare came, I still didn't realize what has happened last night?

But all I knew is that last night I'm all in a real pain. A pain that are nests inside my tummy. Well I still can't say where does it actually hurts cause it surrounds my body. Last night I can't even scream or shout, I was lonely at my bedroom. But I'm chatting with my beautiful lovely girl of mine. But in just a minutes I suddenly can't remember anything, I fell into the darkness, and I cant control myself.

While I'm still unconscience, I remembered that I dreamed about something beautiful. I sat along the seashore where I perfectly can hear the ocean waves and feel the softness of the sand. There I realized that I know my life were almost perfect. But something changes my smile inside my dream, there's should be someone beside me. Some girl with a hijab on, fashionable, white skinned, tall, perfectly cute voice, loving me who ever I am and give her faithful love on me.

Where Is she? I really always wanted her to be here by my side, inside my dream and in the real world. Suddenly I heard a song that I always knew and her voice calling me to wake up...

But then I woke up and I realized that I'm half naked with oily thing on my tummy and warm. Then what I first think since I'm conscience is "my girl" yeah I started to search for my phone and I saw a left message by her, and it was written a lyric song for OWL CITY - Vanilla Twilight, a song that she used to wake me up when I'm down. And she saw me her faith again on me that she believed I'm strong and I will stand. It reminds me about our conversation.

We always have this conversation on having faith on each other, and will never change what ever happen. But most of the time we likely to arrange the plan of being in the future family, yes I promised her that I will marry her to be my beautiful wife of mine and will have children cute and smart ones. When she told me "imagine when our first child say "papa" hihi it will be so cute and you are inside your design work station and our baby come walking like pinguin inside your room and I'm watching aside of the door" that really touches me a lot.

I don't want her believe or faith on me shattered because I'm not that healthy as she knew. But I'm not that weak for that, I promised her that what ever happened I will be her future husband.